I Love You but I Can't Stand You Sometimes!

This is the realist shit

I could EVER write about you

Excluding your obituary

I Love You but I Can't Stand You Sometimes

I can agree its been fucked up since the start

On both parts

I mean you were born into this world

With no chance of the American Dream

Lets keep it real

Your soul was traded for a monthly check

Your flesh was traded for deliberate wrecks 

Your voice was traded for dollars that made NO SENSE

Your self-esteem was traded a coke, sniff, and smile

Your confidence was traded for a fake ass marriage plus three kids

Your innocents was traded for unpleasant sex & family secret bids

I promise I love you but I cant stand you Sometimes

The last time I spoke to you

You called

The conversation went from opening up

To straight battle mode

Its a damn shame I can not ask simple questions

As

Who is my father?

What was he like?

Where can I find him?

Without constant screaming

Belittling

Verbal assault that would damn give me a heart attack

Because I couldn't understand nor accept the words I heard

More importantly the emotional detachment

Its depressing how easy you can defend a rapist

Use worthless catch phrases

Such as

He didn't do that to you

I don't know why your panties were below your knees

Bitch please

Yes I said B-I-T-C-H

Because this is some bitch ass shit

I Love You but I Can't Stand You Sometimes

You end the conversation with excuses and more screaming

Let's NOT forget the typical hang-up

And...

The typical FUCK you

Don't call me

You aint shit

I don't need you in my life

Text messages

Followed by yet another call

However this time

I was left with the notorious voicemail

How nice of you before hanging up Again

You said

"Now right A poem About That"

Thank YOU

Here I go

What type of woman

Settle for a piece of dick that like little girl clits

Cover it up

Beat the hell out of your seed

Make her fear to breed

Because the lack of your parenting

Was lead by your selfish needs

Lets be clear
Life is a choice

You sold your motherhood

For nights in a jail cell

Chasing men that would support your next fix

Implementing self inflicted tricks

You sacrificed three beautiful children's future for guaranteed conflict

I Love You but I Can't Stand You Sometimes

A real Queen would NOT continue to run from her problems

She would first learn how to let go and love thee self

Pray and repent to god

Apologize to those she hurt

Make good and live with a peace of mind

I forgave you a long time ago

Because I understand I'm a product of your mothers parenting

Its impossible for a child to raise children

However children become adults and regardless of your past situation

You as a mother had obligations

You choose the journey of rock bottom

Destroying everything in sight

In fact here is the truth

You're jealous because I decided to be the women

You wanted to be

The more I succeed

The more you drag me thorough emotional greed

Continue to bring me down to your level of unhappiness

Darkness and Loneliness

Instead you should thank god

You have children that praise your name

Despite all the negative things

Make you feel like the best mother ever

Love you unconditionally

Ready to demolish anyone that speak bad about you

Encourage you

Support you

Love you

Never pointed a finger of cause

Just request understanding

I Love You but I Can't Stand You Sometimes

I will not let your negative behavior influence my life anymore

I pray that God bless you in everyway he can

I pray that one day you will forgive yourself

Then in turn ask for forgiveness

Until then

I'm done

Its in God hands

I Love You but I Can't Stand You Sometimes

Thanks for your permission

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